Inner Workings.

I'm fiddling with my own inner workings again. Defining myself as both a pagan and a witch is very hard. I'm a hard polytheist who exclusively works with norse deities, but I'm not a reconstructionist. And then I'm a make-it-up-as-you-go witch, with a love for theatricals that can make some people call it 'wiccanized'. I don't see it as such, but who knows. I wonder where this lands me in the whole pagan umbrella. I've been thinking about my deities - when I worked with the hellenic deities, I was called to the titans; with the norse, I end up called to the jötunns. Somehow it didn't surprise me.

Sometimes I still wonder about the "what ifs" of mixing pantheons. While it's hardest for some to let go of their christian background, it's hardest for me to let go of those I used to work with. But this time, I know I've found my place, there is a strange comfort that comes from being between life and death. It figures I'd end up with Hel, I never really feared death... in fact, my biggest fear is life. I think that's where Loki comes in.

Directly or indirectly, I'm caught between both, and I think it's just the way it's meant to be. Isn't it strange to think of? Loki is not directly fire, but He is connected to it - He is fiery. Hel is the same, with ice. She may not be the element, or directly a bringer of it, but death must be cold as Her realm. Then again, these are just my ramblings right now, who knows exactly what I mean by them. All I know is that it's a new moon and my time to play.