A Month For Loki: Days Thirteen to Seventeen.

I have not been the best I could be. And I don't say this because of the four days unposted, but because one day of failure at a task Hel gave me to follow through every single day for a year. She isn't very pleased with my slip-up, but I think She has taken into consideration that this is the first and hopefully the last, so my punishment is not quite as harsh as it could be.

On a brighter side, I followed through with other projects, such as my devotion jar. For now it's a simple, undecorated jar with pieces of paper inside with offering ideas or things I should do. I plan to decorate it and expand what's on the papers, maybe put a few poems, prayers and other ideas inside. That way on dry days I can pull them out and be more useful than I would otherwise.

I think it was due to all these projects that Loki had me at a great big stop sign this morning. He seems to want me to relax and take time off, or at least not go over myself, particularly considering my sleep schedule and class. But since I have a big nine days coming up from the 21st to the 30th, which will probably involve pretty heavy private devotionals, I can understand that. He is also much closer now, in a way I can feel His presence more often than I used to. It's like strong, but natural warmth during the chilly winter, very hard not to notice even if I wanted to ignore it, and it has just left me wondering of what will come.

Writing now, I suppose I understand what He implied about me writing passively and carefully. Writing in a public place is scary, so I'm unprepared to speak of my experiences as others are, even if I hint to them. So I will leave you at this before it turns into a badly worded ramble with no sense at all, and hopefully my next entry will have more content to it, if I bring myself to write it out.