I am yours.

Fire, much fire is always welcomed both in my heart and my house - so long as nothing burns down in a bad way. Two candles for Hel and two for Loki, each with a pillar to last until the next sabbat and with a small taper to burn down through the night. Frankincense from Oman for Her, and clove for Him.

Three restored wing pieces from wrens were put on the offering plate, and a white candle started the ritual by lighting the others. I began with Hel, not chanting or saying anything I had previously written down, simply what came to my mind and heart to say. I can feel Her presence now, still as I type this, as I did when I spoke to Her. She accepted me as Hers, and now I will work hard to keep the title as one of her devotees. I fear disappointing Her, for She is a strong and powerful Goddess, who might ask more of me than I can give right now. But what I can, I will give, and I will do.

Loki came second, and flames seemed to be all around. The ribbon around my wrist was set on fire, though I didn't get hurt from it. Perhaps it was His way of saying I should have chosen to make cupcakes as offerings rather than apples. But He filled me with warmth on this cold night, tested my will and my mind and held me in His arms. He told me clearly that I cannnot ask of Him to do things for me, but rather to help me as I do them myself, which is exactly what I need to hear.

I feel much more confident in myself with Their approval and official acceptance of me, and I hope to do my best to please Them and work in Their favor. At the end of the ritual, a small card reading took place. What came out of it was a reward for a job well done, and the message that while I may falter and stray, if I really am with my heart in this path then all will be well in time.

I have also managed to talk to Loki more this night than ever before. His voice seems clearer to me now, and I'm learning to not be so tense about it being my own brain making it up and letting Him speak. When I relax in that way, it's actually easier to tell what is me and what is Him speaking. Hopefully with time I will improve at hearing not only Loki, but Hel and the other Gods.

In short, I have much to learn still, but this was a big step in my personal path and my relationship with my Gods, and now I realize I must have a higher level of commitment to Them. They have already helped me improve myself in many ways, I only hope I can be of good service to Them.

I am a student, I am Rökkatruar, and I am Lokean.